I was sitting in 360, eating a philly cheesesteak, and feeling so distant from God. I was feeling extremely weak and consumed with classwork. It's not that I couldn't handle classwork, In fact, it was almost enjoyable. I was honestly motivated about the work in my classes. But the amount of focus required to effectively produce artwork in every class is very draining; It certainly takes away time of being spirit-filled in everyday actions. How can one effectively perform the duties of a student, but also maintain a deep desire to receive live in the Holy Spirit every breathe on this earth? How can one effectively perform tasks of this world, but also be in-tune with God? Doesn't it take more than "saying your daily prayer", or "responding in the Christian way"? Is it okay to consume yourself in work if it seems like it takes away from living in the Holy Spirit?
This summer was a good summer. All I had to manage was going to work. I had a desire to use all of my time to get closer to God. Regardless of where I was, what I was doing, I wanted to be Spirit filled and live a Christ-centered lifestyle. God was gracious enough to pour a satisfactory and consistent success during this time period. Wherever I was, I was praying in my mind, feeling the Spirit, seeking and accepting His will, and constantly surrendering all aspects of my life. Life flows much better, when one seeks Him constantly.
However, when school started, this reality became harder to find. When school started, suddenly my mind was forced to focus 100% on work. Doesn't God call us to live a Spirit-filled life, wherever we are?
I was sitting in 360, eating a philly cheesesteak, and feeling so
distant from God. I was feeling extremely weak and consumed with
classwork. I honestly did not want to get up and intentionally seek God for His presence or clarity. I did not want to drop the mindset of work and experience life. I was tired of it. My Spirit was drained. This world drains us, regardless of the tasks that are presented, we as Christians can get drained if we experience the Holy Spirit. There is a huge distinction between worldly tasks and Spirit-filled tasks. Halfway through my cheesesteak, God visited me unexpectedly. Out of the blue, He came and reached down, just for me. Just for me, He saw me in my tiredness and point of giving up, and said rise. What a privilege it is to live for God; a God who does not want to see us give up. He is a God that does not want to see us tired, but stand strong in Spirit. At that moment, I couldn't finish my cheesesteak, but enjoyed the presence of God that suddenly came so strongly and unexpectedly. God will always do His part; He will never fail.
It is vital to seek Him ourselves, and to hunger for Him, but when we are in circumstances that are just too much, He will never fail us. What an honor, to have God be a friend, a comforter who chooses to be in our lives when we feel weak.
